Sorry 4 Nothin’

I’m sick of saying sorry
When you know its you that should be.
Yeah I lied about alot of stuff
But only because there was no trust?

If you’re so shallow that you cant accept it
Then I’m not sorry at all, not even a little bit
I hate the way it broke us
And the way you insisted it was a must!

Did you ever stop to think the reasons why?
I felt ashamed and so bad it made me cry
You’re really not helping by walking away
The one time I need you and bye is all you can say

01-29-2005, 04:31 PM

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Don’t Ask Me What is Wrong

Yesterday I was in a bad mood .. It was depression I guess and today just made it worse .. I wrote theses verses for my Bestie TL becasue she just couldn’t bare to see me like this … I wana tell her thank you for tolerating me … And thank you because you will have 2 tolerate me today tooo  03-27-2006, 09:00 AM

Don’t Ask Me What is Wrong

I wish I knew the answer
I really wish I did
I feel so sad
And I know it makes you mad
I don’t know why
I really wish I was happy
Just for you, I’d be happy if I could
The look in your eyes, when you see my like this
Make me think of the smile I miss
And makes the tears start to fall
I can’t control it
And I know it doesn’t fit
TL you are the best I can get
I wish I was happy for you

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Rainy Day

I do not like a rainy day.
The road is wet, the sky is gray.
I wish the sun would come and stay.

 

My day becomes dark and dim
My heart remembers -
And my eye brims

Sad heart be still and stop whining
Behind the clouds the sun is shining
Smile and end the pining

And remember some rain must fall
Some days must be dark and dim
So smile after all!

02-25-2006, 11:11 AM

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An Everlasting Friend

How are you all … This poem i wrote it on 22/8/05 @ 4 am after i prayed …. I wanted 2 share it with u all

You’re a true friend,
that I want you to know,
Our love for each other
has helped us to grow.
We’ve been through some tough times,
but we’ve made it through,
The only one I ever trusted was you.

You helped me through anger,
you’ve chased away fears.
You held me through sadness,
and kissed away tears.

You stayed by my side
when the world turned away.
You helped me see joy
when the skies were all gray.

You were the rainbow
at the end of the storm.
You help me be different
when I shouldn’t conform.

You held my hand
when you knew we would fall.
Every heartache,
you saw me through it all.

I’m not sure
I’m always the best friend to you,
I know I’m not perfect,
but this much is true.

When life gets you down,
And there’s nowhere to turn,
I’ll help you through and
I’ll share your concern.

I’ll try my best to return every favor,
When you’re sure that you’ll drown,
then I’ll be your lifesaver;
Even if we both go down.

Whether we sink or swim
doesn’t matter at all,
Just know that I’ll be there
whenever you call.

I’ll pull you out
when life pulls you under.
I’ll be the sun
when there’s lightning and thunder.

And when it’s all over,
And we’ve fought every war,
There’s one thing I promise,
Of this I am sure,
When the time comes
that we’re put to our rest.
Be sure that you know that,
My friend, you’re the best.

I’ll miss you each day
’til I see you again.

At the end of the tunnel,
you’ll be my guiding light,
You’ll lead me to heaven,
away from the night.

We’ll be there together,
and we’ll never grow old.
And we’ll walk hand in hand
On the streets paved of gold.

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Dreams is what i am made of (Reality is what i am)

This is something I worte on … Jan 21 2004, 06:48 PM and thought of sharing it

All the doors are closed and i cant find an open window

the only door i gained my strength from has closed

and even the two substitute doors ….are closed

i am walking in a hall way ……filled with closed doors

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Untitled

It is hard,
So hard.
The stress,
The obligation:
“Uphold the family image”
“ Uphold Islam”
“ Make something of yourself”
“ Be successful”
“ Get better Grades”
“ Be an example to your siblings”

I Can not be a failure
Can not fail
Can not fall.

Oh Allah,

Grant me Patience,
Grant me strength,
Grant me knowledge

Let me be guided to the straight path
Chose a good career
Please my parents
Propogate Islam

Please Allah do not let me fail
Do not let me fall

07-14-2005, 06:46 PM

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World

Somewhere there’s a baby crying
somewhere someone has his father dying
Mummy doesn’t have no money for buying
food for surviving and little baby is dying
Somewhere there’s someone who’s lonely
somewhere in the world profounding
Sad to say they’re not the one and only
for there are so many in the world of plenty
I’ve learned to love, I’ve learned to laugh
I’ve learned the truth within a path
although my friends life soon will end
There must be something to do for them
Somewhere there’s a father teaching
Somewhere the young ones are reaching
Take heed little one’s to the holy man’s preaching
No more cheating, for them to be riching
So many lives and so many tears
Grieves strict in mamas and papas
What we know, is what life gives
And we’ve got to make it
So let’s join hands together
And our hearts for each other
There’s no harm to gather
we’re in this world together

 04-18-2005, 12:35 AM

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When ppl let you down

hey all ,

written on 01-30-2005, 03:59 PM

I see your smile
I know your mind
No words need be said
I understand.
Focused on each other
We listen and we care
Laughter wrinkled like water
Together, we are.
Others are here, yes,
And we value them, yes,
But a special bond remains,
A line between us two.
Each friendship is special
Each is unique
And so is ours
We know.
And then time begins to roll
and bring up it’s ugly head
Change begins
Now a little less than before.
Slowly, surely,
Not knowing why
Faster, stronger, without care
Our world shifts and twinkles and splits.
Shattered remains fall down
Urged by angry, lashing words
twisted faces, stone deaf ears
Outside the whirlwind,
We die inside.
The scars run deep
sharp gaps in our souls
We have succeeded in hurting
And hurt ourselves.
So you move on
And I remain
We keep on living
Turn our faces apart.
Now I glance across
At you from outside
Shaded eyes dry with tears
New friends, new life.
Laughter, smiling (clenched teeth)
The jokey hurl of the head
The area surrounds you
I cannot come near.
From behind my glass window
I know more than those within
I see the hurt in your eyes
I know the pain in your smile
I have been there before – I love you
Why do you pretend?
I hate to see your pain
And I cry inside
Tears deep within my soul
I cannot help you anymore.
What we had once
We can never have again.
The scars run deep,
But I still care.
You were my friend.
and you were too

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The Perfect Girl

Dedicated 2 my best friends TL, 01-30-2005, 03:53 PM

She’s the perfect girl

All the ppl want to be with her,
All the girls want to be like her.
To her, looks don’t matter
And neither does what people say.
I love her sense of humor
And the way she laughs at jokes.
The way she walks, the way she talks
And how she’s nice to all.

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